Tuesday, March 02, 2010Y
whoa whoa whoa
why am i feeling restless? like there is so much i have to do but don't know what to do...
i'm stepping into the unknown. don't know what's going to happen...don't know what to expect...don't know how i'm going to manage...don't know how to clear the house...don't know if i should sell the house...don't know if my kids will be ok...don't know if they are going astray...don't know where i'm going...don't know what else. there seems to be so many many many many things but ... i'm in anticipation...frozen in space and time. am i getting too comfortable? is that what having a job does to someone?
i want to put everything in place before i become unemployed again next month. it's like all time was spent at the job and many things are left undone. now don't know how to start again. *sigh*
i'm glad, however, that the craft projects are starting to come. in the last week got an order for a knitted sweater and a crochet blouse, request for patterns for beaded necklace and neck wire, want to think of ideas for handmade/self designed stuff to sell, work out quotes for craft classes and another request to learn a necklace i designed and proposal for easter gifts. hmm...time to organise all my yarn and jewelry and craft stuff. i need to pack them. they're all over the place!!!!!
actually looking forward to taking a break from work and spending more time with crafts again. the 6 month break will be an amazing time though i may not be able to spend much time on my crafts because there will be lots to study. i will miss the office but i will be learning a lot and achieving much. it will be a milestone for me. another goal achieved. learning sign language was also another major milestone for me. 2010 will be an awesome year. it's only the beginning and i'm moving forward.
i've done what i want to do for personal growth and i'm doing what i want to do for spiritual growth. it's been an amazing journey so far. there is one other area i've always wanted to be better at and that is in the home front. i wish i can be more domesticated. haha....be good with the home. it really takes a lot to be a good homemaker. i'm not ready for that yet. been working on it but not very successful.
i will reach there...one day...one step at a time. i will.
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* faith *
