Sunday, May 17, 2009Y
irresponsible behaviours
picture this (fictitious)... a young man, john, suffers from a painful disease and family has to look after him both financially and physically. though painful for him, it was more painful for his family to watch him. after some years, decided to free himself from the misery as the pain was too much to bear. jumped down and died. my verdict....selfish bum. result....parents and siblings cry their eyes out every day and after so many years, his parents still can't get over it. life for every family member changed and relationships were broken. parents became depressed, siblings became protective of parents and could not let anyone else come before them. would it have been different if he had been more appreciative of all that the family is doing for him and work on love and concern rather than having the focus on his misery and pain? would it have been different and easier on the family if he had died in the process a happier person? i believe so.
don't harp on what's negative, be appreciative of what's available unconditionally. smokers...i've said this before and i will say it again. SELFISH. why deceive yourself by saying "if the family loves me, they will accept my smoking". how about telling yourself "i love my family and i will not allow smoking to destroy them".
receiving is happiness, giving is even more satisfying. don't expect to be receiving all the time. after a while it will stop.
start giving to receive more. what you give will be returned many times more.
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Sunday, May 10, 2009Y
my boy's back from vietnam
had a real good rest last night. slept well.... :)
woke up, got ready for craft session at clementi west. was not expecting many to come as it was vesak day and mother's day weekend. however, glad to have company. was there till about 5pm then went to clementi's cityVibe for ramen and the 99c sushi....i'm not going back - nothing fantastic with the food. it was a disappointment. anyway, managed to be in time for some foot "adjustment" at jurong west. it was painful!! hopefully it's just for now and will be perfect from monday onwards. *sigh* better walk properly and not injure myself again.
went to the airport after that to pick jeremy - finally he's back from vietnam. fine young man he is. love you boy and miss you too...glad you're back though it means no more free use of the laptop. it's ok. rather have you at home. :D
i'm looking forward to service and monday's bus ride to the office. it was a wonderful ride on friday morning and i'm looking forward to seeing more in detail on monday.
5am...better sleep now or else going to be a zombie soon. good nite and sweet dreams.
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Friday, May 08, 2009Y
i need more discipline...
yes, i need more discipline with my time. :(
will have to work real hard on that. focus, focus focus...
anyway, here's what i feel like saying today - combined cell group meeting was A W E S O M E !!
great message, great company, great day. :)
message for me -
natural growth starts from infancy to dying ... we lose the joy and hunger to learn and improve
spiritual growth starts from dying to infancy ... we grow with joy and hunger to learn and improve
that's the difference of walking alone and walking in Christ. AMEN
was at bus-stop waiting for bus after meeting and this guy was smoking at the the bus-stop. that irritated me. my bus came and we were taking the same bus! sat behind him, then decided to move to the back as i could still smell the smoke. happy happy took out my notes to read, then this lady came up the bus and sat next to me and i realised she's got this sweet smelling fragrance on. that irritated me again. i prayed and prayed for her to go away. then it dawned on me...."why should i be praying for her to go away? it's not her problem. it's my problem". i prayed again but now for a spirit of tolerance, a spirit of obedience and a spirit of acceptance. after a while, opened my eyes and my prayers were answered. she alighted at the next stop.
...reminded me of a message from today's meeting as well - "we can only receive as much as we can give" - will pray for a spirit of giving.
it's been a great day. good night.
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